Wolf-shifts in Metal clubs…infectious ferality?

I never thought I’d be someone who would actually want to go to hear Metal music but I did and now I’m hooked! Talk about connecting to primal energy..

So – I spent an good 10 days recently when a guy Isaac I connected to at Stonehenge Solstice came to stay in Exeter. When I say ‘connected’, I feel some deep energetic link of some kind between us; not something that would work as a relationship but more of a “soul-brother” than “soul-mate”. I like him because he has passion for life, through music, is quite intense as well. I find him a bit exhausting for similar reasons and because he is carrying major emotional baggage and pain.. plus he claims to have fallen in love with me though hopefully that will pass soon..admittedly I did enjoy indulging in romance for a week 😉 I’m happy to give that up though as there seem to be lots of other ways we could develop our bond, and I’d rather explore that.

ANYWAY — his main music passion is Metal music – and so on the last night we hit the underground Cavern club for 4 live metal bands. Somehow we even got John and Rachel to come, which was amazing… I had a lot of fun dressing up in goth/metal clothes, spikey choker, wrist-bands, finger-less lace gloves,eyeliner,boots..must upload some photos. In many ways I find this akin to getting into ritual dress.

wolf shifts and inducing it in another?


* locally grown organic rocket
* half a farmer’s market chicken breast, coated in olive oil, pepper, curry powder, char-griddled last night and sliced up this morning
* cornish soft cheese with garlic and herbs, from Tavistock “cheese festival”, crumbled
* local organic basil, diced
* ripe cherry tomatoes, picked yesterday from friend’s allotment
* dash of balsamic vinegar (how did I only manage to discover this?!)

estimated total cost: around £2.

I LOVE farmer’s markets.

That and food. The chicken is particularly tender and succulent.I’m so glad for once I didn’t gorge myself on the whole breast last night!


*taste orgasm*

nicotine cravings gone now thank god. Physical ones anyway. Did end up having a caffeinated latte tho because no decaff left; am buzzing madly now I can only pray I will sleep later. Its a bit annoying having a low tolerance at times.

The annoyance of addictions

aaa.. I love the approach of autumn, sunny september days. The university grounds are beautiful at the moment, golden sunshine that is still warm, the leaves just starting to turn to reds and yellow. Perhaps it also brings back some nostalgia as even though it was over 3 years ago(!) I was at university this time of year reminds me of the start of a new term (and thus the escape from home and office life!)

anyway..the days shorten, madness and activity of summer calms down, and I start to think about what I want to let go off this year. Autumn to me is both a time of harvest (at the start) and gathering together, plus a cleansing, getting rid of toxins and general approaching towards the death and darkness of winter. I enjoyed winter last year by spending a lot of time being indoors cooking meals, sharing company of friends, watching films and talking. Also intense studying of anatomy and working on my massage!

time to give up my low-level but creepingly insidious smoking addiction.

September 3rd, words from my granny

I felt compelled to put this somewhere other than my email inbox. My granny is..around 84 now (and yep she has got herself online, she rocks 🙂 )

” Hi Catherine

Not sure when you will receive this- probably find it very boring, but had a feeling you may be interested in how I felt all those years ago =It was actually 67 years ago at almost exactly this time of day -11.00 a.m to be exact –
I was 19 years old working in the Castle Hotel Lynton- Had returned from School in Switzerland and was ” filling in” as we called it in those days a sort of Gap Year –

At 11-00 a.m the Prime Minister spoke on the Radio ( No TV of course} This morning on Radio 4 this message was repeated just as it was all those years ago – ” Germany has invaded Poland against the wishes of the League
of Nations- We are now at war with Germany” I was washing lettuce at the time and KNEW that I would always remember those words – Where I was – and what I was doing _( have a feeling there was a slug in the Lettuce! ) I was
partly scared but mostly I think excited, as unlike my Mum I had no idea of the reality of war — Those words
” We are now at war with Germany” seemed unreal- Five minutes later the Sirens went —- False alarm, someone somewhere pressed the wrong button- At that moment life as I had known it and expected it to be was over- perhaps it is similar events throughout the centuries that has kept our world turning – Who knows?

Enough of this It was Radio 4 this morning that brought it all back- I,m not sure that we made such a good job of the peace as we did of winning the war — Maybe we were all tired “